"There might be a day when I can’t live this far away from my family any more, and that day might be soon. I am tired of missing the milestones and moments."

— adventures of mascarah.: what I learned this week… 

I fear that I’m not ‘supposed’ to feel this way and that I won’t recognize it when it happens. I’m afraid that I will keep pushing that feeling away as to not admit defeat. This is silly, but thank you for this. I’m tired of the same thing, but can’t really find the right time to do anything about it.